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Wedding Dress APPROVED!

2009-11-14T08:57:00.003+08:00

If you liked how this looks, wait until he gets on stage & dance.

OH YESS.

YES FINALLY.

It's out.

Wedding Dress has been released yesterday.

MV = Taeyang-goodness overload

Song = No auto-tuning of his beautiful voice

Overall, YES ME LOVE,

My no. 2 man, Taeyang, you owned the day.

Kthxbai.

The one who pwned

2009-11-12T16:05:00.000+08:00

Beautiful Tabi

Rogue Tabi

UNF Tabi

Not transgendered.
Pretty sure not gay.

Just amazing :)

ILYSFM

My Sincere Apology

2009-11-09T18:02:00.001+08:00

For my 400th post on Phrankenlife, I feel obligated to provide an explanation to my twitterverse followers.

It must have frustrated my non-fandom followers because most of my tweets, are loaded with K-Pop content.
SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY.
It's just that twitter has been my main source for K-Pop updates.
Quick snappy updates on what's happening in K-Pop world.

I held a lot of fandom-related conversations on Twitter too, and it must have flooded your Twitter/Home like mad. For that, I'm honestly sorry.
Seriously, do both of us a favour and unfollow me, because I'd like to keep our real-life friendships intact.
I won't be taking it personally, because our real life friendships mean so much more to me than some silly Twitter feud.

Love, @Bunniness

The day that f(x) took me.

2009-11-09T16:36:00.007+08:00

Honestly, I hate peppering my personal blog talking about how I like some K-Pop MV, because I could be doing that on Tumblr.
However, this needs to come out here, because I'd like comments, pretty please?

Remember when I said that La Chata was a cruel joke by SM? (K-Note #4)?
Got us all excited about Asia's top dance pop female group, etc, etc., then let f(x) debut with La Chata which was just mehhh~

I didn't bother to listen to Chu~ when it first came out, because I wasn't excited about f(x) anyway since La Chata.
Thanks to Youtube, I stumbled upon the MV for Chu~
OH BOY I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I MISSED.

It took me.
Head over heels, it took me.
I clearly don't know who's who in the MV, but everyone looking uber adorable w/o being trashy or OTT.
...and Amber, was she wearing leather pants in there? WIN WIN WIN.
(you should know that I have a girl crush on Amber)

Oh & the choreography? Smart & enchanting :) THUMBS UP!

Now this is when some knowledge on f(x) could help me out A LOT.
Please someone enlighten me and answer these for me.

1) Who is that pouting cutie at 0:05?

2) ..and the gorgeous one with the long hair at 0:06?

3) ...oh &the cutesy princess at 0:09? (does counting motion at 0:35)

4) Lovin' the girl at 1:08, but who?

5) 1:13 - 1:20 : Who's that girl who was dancing in front, the one with the red shirt? Fierce little thing.

Finally, 2:01 -- 2:05 : Where have I seen this dance move before?

Watch CHU~ by f(x)!

Okay these are the questions that boggle my mind at the moment.
Fandom-minna san, yoroshiku onegaishimasu.

EDITED (1) : @ItzMimi02 has identified 1) as Sulli, 2) as Krystal, Jessica's (of SNSD) sister, 3) as Sulli, again, 4) (still asking for clarifications from her), & 5) as Luna
Dance move at 2:01 -- 2:05 --> We're still wondering where else we saw it!

EDITED (2): She said 4) is Victoria. Okay so far, I have loved Amber, Sulli, Krystal, Victoria, & Luna. Oh wait, that's ALL the girls in f(x) right? So like, there's something about each one of them that I love? OH WOW. Talk about girl domination.

Open Letter: Love.

2009-11-08T19:24:00.004+08:00

I had to make this an open love letter, because there is no where I can tell you for real how I feel about you.

I think I'm in love with you.
No, I think we're in love.
You don't want admit it, because it's all wrong.
I just don't care about what's wrong and right anymore.

It's not fair, you see, when that person who had you, couldn't love you the way I do.
That person wanted different things from you, I just wanted you.

................................
There are more things I wanted to say, but I don't know how.
All of my thoughts are in a frenzy now, and I just can't put them down here in an understandable order.

I love you.
There you go.
You know how I'm always afraid to say this 3 words.
I cannot commit to anything, you should know that too.

But right now, I want to commit to you.
I get to love you, but I won't get to call you mine.
I'm just gonna have to watch you rise and fall because of the kind of love that you said was 'right', unlike my wrongful love.

When the day comes that you'd accept the fact that we are in love, then I'll be here, waiting.
You know you could always count on me, for anything.

Love, your girl

EDITED: When I read it over and over again, it sounds like something out of a JoBros love song, maybe I should turn this into lyrics. It's original, really, straight from my heart. Now if I could find a tune to go with it....

Discussion: Familiarity with foreign languages (via Fangirltainment.com)

2009-11-08T13:38:00.001+08:00

From Fangirltainment

Q: When you first got into Korean entertainment, did you have trouble with names? Do you still?
A:Oh most definitely. My first K-Pop love is BIGBANG. & I can only remember G-Dragon & T.O.P's name. I recognize their faces, but the names just took me longer to remember. It didn't take long (still a fangirl rookie), now it just comes naturally. I learned the names faster than I remembered the faces *winks*

Q: Speaking of Hangul, how many of you learned Hangul after falling in love with K-entertainment?
A: Like officially learned it? I didn't. I wanted to, but not for the moment. I learned singing it, using romaji lyrics and all, but it usually took me a lot of times listening to a Korean song, for me to pick the words up. & if you heard me singing any Korean song fluently, you can really imagine, how obsessively have I heard the song.

Q: To build on all of this, would you say you’ve picked up a lot of Korean vocabulary from watching/hearing and even reading (news articles often keep words like oppa/unni/ajusshi/ajumma/sunbae/hoobae/etc. untranslated) things related to Korean entertainment?
A: Not a lot, really. I'm still having trouble using the words correctly. So I'd rather not.

Q: ALTHOUGH, I have done some self-teaching of Korean. Has anyone else?
A: I plan to. I have learned Japanese in the past ( and likewise, it flew out of my brain so fast -- because I don't have anyone to use it with), so I am more comfortable in Japanese than in Korean. For eg, I learned & be able to sing along BIGBANG's Japanese songs so much faster, compared to their Korean song.

Q: As a last note, do you mind when subbers translate words that have no equivalent in English?
A: I kind of mind, because it confuses me, and jeopardized my Korean-language learning process, but overall I'm just thankful that they're subbing at all.

You don't wanna miss Dara's Kiss.

2009-11-08T06:08:00.000+08:00

Awake & bored at 6 am Sunday morning.
& I hate my new blogger layout.

Being the dunce that I am, I did not save my previous blogger layout that I love, for reasons that still escape me until now. Oh wait..because I'm not too bright *slaps forehead*!

I have just listened to Sandara Park's single, Kiss. Catchy Korean Pop, as always. Oh but wait, it featured CL..so YEAY! My love for CL & Minzy of 2NE1 is similar for the thing I have for TOP & Taeyang of BIGBANG. Most of the times, I just really can't decide, when you ask me who my favourite member is.

I wanted to browse Youtube, but trust me my internet connection has an annoying sense of humour, on top of being temperamental.

Maybe I should just go back to sleep or drive myself nuts with Sandara's KISS.
Wait that sounds a little wrong, no? *chuckles*

New layout: shakes head IDTS.

2009-11-07T17:37:00.000+08:00

What do you think of my new layout?
I seriously think that it's lame-o.
I liked my previous blogger layout so much better.
Now look how I ruined everything.

The only thing I liked about this layout is that posted photos would look a lot better compared to when I was using my previous layout.

Well BOO HOO.
It's done so I should get over it and move on to happier things :)
Besides, things can always get better.
In time, I'll keep updating and touching up the look of this blog, and it will be just as satisfying as the previous layout.

I actually have other plans besides sleeping this weekend.
Seriously, for the past few weeks, I have spent weekends sleeping my ass off.
I don't always eat or sleep well during the weekdays, because of my job.
So weekends are for wasting myself away with catching up on my snooze.

I have a lot of new BIGBANG videos, courtesy of my fangirl-sunbae, Izyan, but I didn't bring my thumbdrive to work today, so I had to leave in my PC in the office. So, I'm left with the Internet to entertain myself this weekend. That is if, the internet connection didn't throw tantrums.

Final note: I'm thinking of getting a life-sized standee using this photo for my birthday (in June -- need a lot of time to save). A-okay?

Happy birthday, Seung-hyun..

2009-11-04T10:45:00.002+08:00

IT'S NOVEMBER 4TH.

Now fellow fangirls, you should know what that means.

It's my gorgeous-sweet-amazing T.O.P's birthday.

Choi Seung-hyun

Choi-T.O.P

T.O.P-hyung

BIGBANG's Big Boy

Tabi.

However you choose to address him, we all love him to bits *Now don't we?*

Well okay I do.

Mannn I wish I could write something meaningful and sweet and nice here for our Big Boy, but my mind is just blank at the moment. Same thing would happen if he personally stood before me.

Well here goes (I guess?)

Choi Seung-hyun, have a blessed birthday, I love you....(excuse the smaller font, but I'm just shy.)

Oh well, that's about it I guess. See the thing is, I don't say the 3 words so easily, so when I actually said it, it means all the great things in the world and in my heart for the recipient. I guess it's so much easier, when he's that korean pop idol who is miles and miles away, and he can't break your heart for real.

For more spazzing on T.O.P, visit my tumblelog: http://phrankenlife.tumblr.com

I'm officially in a great mood today, even after a sucky day at work.

EDITED: Had the awesomest time making #happybdaytop a trending topic on Twitter. THE BEST, I tell you. Work is never fun, but I'll keep this joy pinned in my heart for extra strength tonight. WORKING, of course.

I believe in cute smiles to save the day.

2009-11-02T19:24:00.001+08:00

OMGAH electricity had been out in my home since yesterday & I have been deprived of my daily Internet dose, especially the K-Pop updates from Twitter.

Semalam terpaksa tidur dalam kegelapan dan kepanasan sebab it's Sunday and we can't get any electrician to come down to our place and fix it. First thing Monday (10 AM OKAYH), report kerosakan kat management office but had to wait until nearly 7 PM, for the resident electrician to come and fix it. Memang panas hati lah, sbb mula2 janji pukul 10 am, then 1 pm, then 5 pm, in the end dkat 7 pm baru dia muncul. Dah la nak kena keje malam, bayangkan sakitnya hati tak leh nak tido sbb kepanasan.

Well anyway, after taking the whole day to show up, it took him less than 30 minutes to fix what's broken. That lucky mofo had the cutest smile (for a Malay guy), so nak marah pun tak jadi, as I was reduced to a giggling fit of embarassment around him (note: I hate how girly I have become lately).

Nasib baik hari ni masuk keje at 11 pm, so I get an extra hour or two to sleep (or surf the Net -- told ya I have been deprived).

K-Note #7: I have recently been girl-crushing real hard on Amber of f(x). Well yeah, when f(x) first debuted, she didn't really stand out, so I didn't really see her. However, for some reasons, as I was on Google to look for fresh hairstyles for a couple of friends, I am seeing a lot of the styles I like in Amber. In addition to that, she's just uber adorable. Gawd gawd gawd I can just look at that cutie forever. Visit my Tumblelog for more of Amber-cuteness!

[translated] Let Me Hear Your Voice - BIGBANG

2009-10-29T12:24:00.001+08:00

The rain just now has stopped
The smell of asphalt is floating around the city
Hey, over there too, the weather is fine already right?
For the weather has cleared up from the west
Since you’re not a morning person
Everyday, will you be able to wake up properly?
I’m still worried about things like that

The spreading sky, the freedom
Although neither of them has changed
Right now, just that… it’s only just that you are not by my side

Let me hear your voice
If we become honest, surely
We’ll be able to understand each other
Please open your heart
Let me hear your voice
The path we have come is, for us, definitely
An important STEP to that future

The first time I met you was
Around this season right?
The light up street was
Glowing beautifully
The crybaby-you, from that time on, often
Laid your forehead on my shoulder
You were crying right? That extreme warmth
From your touch on my shoulder

Everyone lives, carrying his own worry
Desperately holding his broken heart

Let me hear you voice
If we become more kind
We’ll be able to love each other
Don’t avert my eyes
Let me hear your voice
Let’s get over those entwined anxieties and loneliness
The feelings of this moment become our bond

Yeah, Since you went away hasn’t been the same
In my heart all I got is pain
Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can’t maintain
Sunlight moonlight you lit my life realize in the night
while love shines bright
Cant let you go we’re meant forever baby let me know

This past without you, Can’t forget you
Letting me be the cloud hanging above me
Raining on me missing you touch
Nights get long and it’s hard to clutch
We’re apart breaks my heart
Its all for the best girl you’re my world
In time my love unfurls
He will then wait for you girl

Let me hear your voice
If we become honest, surely
We’ll be able to understand each other
Please open your heart
Let me hear your voice
The path we have come is, for us, surely
An important STEP to that future

Source : iBigbang Fansite
Credits to : aleee@iBigbang Fansite

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Damn this song is beautiful. Both the melody and the lyrics are just beautiful. Kudos Big Bang!

The one that was never here

2009-10-27T12:15:00.005+08:00

I thought I had forgotten how is it like to be in love.
Had I really forgotten how it felt like, or had I been in denial all these while?

I like the idea of love.
I want to be in love again.
I want to remember how it feels like.
I'd like the warmness of love to envelope my bitter heart.
I'd like another person's hand to fill my palm lovingly.
I'd like cool lips kissing my forehead and a warm smile striking my heart cold.

It's like there is someone, who is already doing all these, but it's just a blurry image.
It's like I'm getting faceless visions of that someone who I love and loves me back.
I miss him, but he is not there. He was never here.

Who are you, really?
& are you looking to find me now, the way I am looking to find you..?

Oh God, I must be losing my mind *sigh*!

Halloween blues

2009-10-24T11:19:00.000+08:00

Project Align @ WKESP this year is going to have a major Halloween party & I'm bummed up because I can't think of anything to weaaarrr. Major crisis here, because wet blankets will serious be pranked, and I don't think they're kidding.

Kalau tak pakai tudung, boleh jd G-Dragon or Honey-Senpai (of Ouran Hostobu) >.<

Tim suggested jadi one of the Korean Pop Idols I adore. I'm seriously thinking T.O.P, & I just need to add 2 things to my wardrobe to imitate T.O.P. One I have been desperately wanting since last month, and another could be of use in the future. Oh wait I need skinny jeans. PFFT. As if I could fit in one of those..ROFL. Ha lg satu, the studded mask, where am I gonna find one of that again?

So even w/o the skinny jeans & studded mask (dah la pakai tudung), will the T.O.P look work?

DITTO. IDTS.

Daya kreativiti saya mmg lemah tahap gaban. ORZ

HUWAAA HELP! *burts into tears*

Phrankenlife @ Tumblr

2009-10-24T08:57:00.001+08:00

WOOHOO.
I'm finally on Tumblr.

I'm kinda liking it's style.
Visit Phrankenlife @ Tumblr to see my mini ramblings!

Strung on Tabi

2009-10-24T03:24:00.008+08:00

It's Friday and I'm off work.
Even though I cherish staying home and catching up on Big Bang videos on YouTube, having a fever and a major headache are such killjoys.

It's Big Bang Friday on the TKPA blog & G-Dragon's Butterfly MV is released today.
I have been waiting for Big Bang Friday for weeks, but it finally came, my head hurts too much to fully enjoy it.
Oh well, that's life!

I'm currently watching a TMO video of Big Bang's NII Fall photoshoot, and T.O.P is looking like all kinds of things inside it. All the good things (and some bad things that I still like), of course.

With all the rookies bursting into the K-Pop scene recently, I'm still strung on T.O.P.
I hope your solo act comes soon, Tabi. It would be one of the things I shall look forward to, next year (hopefully, pleeaassee >.<)

T.O.P right here

It was mehhh.

2009-10-22T13:07:00.003+08:00

FUYOHH.
Hari ni hari pertama turun padang bermain futsal.
Truthfully, I'm never a fan of football & I had never watched a futsal game once in my life.
God help me, but I can't kick a ball to save my life.
I just couldn't get the game :(

Under the watchful eyes of a couple of helpful colleagues, I had a kick or two around with the girls and it was pretty fun. But still, no spark.

Brought my faithful basketball along, but there was no one to play with & it got pretty boring shooting hoops on your own.

I'd probably not go to futsal again.

Wait, okay maybe another time or two, to make sure I'm not judging futsal too quickly.
Futsal is one of the things in life that deserves another chance with me.

Besides, everyone looked like they were enjoying it, so I wonder what I'm missing here.

K-Note #6: I just heard SHINee's new album - 2009, The Year of Us. Not dissappointing & I'm impressed, I'd say. A handful of songs like JoJo, Y.O.U, & Ring Ding Dong quickly became my favourites. Prior to this, apart from Replay & SHINee World, I don't care so much about SHINee. But with this album, they had a new, more polished, & matured look, and I'm paying attention. Keep up the good work, baby boos! I'm paying attention now :)

Faith has found its way to me

2009-10-19T06:43:00.005+08:00

It's Monday morning and I should be in the office in 19 hours.

But here I am worrying about the looming workload.
Can I clear dual text cleanup for 4 states in the last weeks of October and all November?
Can I do all that in addition to other TUG work?
Can I make it happen?
I'd like to believe that I can, & I'm willing to work hard to make it happen, but like I said, I can't be sure about anything now.

I'm just not as good as the rest of LEG team member, and I admit it.
It's not that I tried less, in fact I have worked even harder.
But the results are just not up to par.
Trust me, no one is more dissappointed in me than myself right now.

If I know what's wrong with me, and why couldn't I be like everyone else, then probably I won't be worrying about work on the weekends.

I care about my job.
Despite what I said, and what I plan to do in the future, I still care about this job.
I care about doing my best.
I care about my team's performance.
I care about making my superiors proud of me.

Now is not the right time to be losing my focus on my job.
But the other thing that I need to do for myself, needs a lot of focus too.

When I got home, I need to shift my focus to that other task, but I'm usually beat by the time I reached home or be worrying about my current workload.

I seriously need help, but I don't know who to go to, because everyone keeps saying that I myself should know what I want and what I should be doing.

Hell, if I knew all that, then I wouldn't be asking in the first place. Make sense?

No one has any idea how much I wanted to quit now.
Quit everything, but when did I become a quitter?

Maybe I have been so, all this while, but I didn't realise it?

*MAJOR SIGH*

Maybe I should be doing one thing that needs brainpower at a time.
I'd rather have my body tired, than my mind, because if your mind is tired, you lose focus more easily and each day will be blurry and lose its meaning.

It's nearly 7 am, and I'm home now.
I just spend the whole Sunday at Iqbal's and our friend Jimen came visiting after midnight, and we sat up all night talking.
Jimen was our friend from the old days & he's one of the most incredible dancer I have ever seen.
We spoke a lot about our lives, our memories, and he even showed us some of his best moves.
Even though we just stayed home and talked and laughed, it feels so good. Even better than going out for dinner, to the movies or shopping.
In the company of amazing old friends, I feel refreshed & happy.

I hope we can do that again, guys. You guys are just the best! ♥ ♥
& Jimen, thanks for the encouragement you gave me!
You have no idea how much it means to me to hear that someone has faith in me, because I lost mine.

Maybe when I decided to follow your suggestions, you can help me with it?
I know you would. Like you always said (& for once I know someone means it), that's what old mates are for :)

It's not you, it's me

2009-10-18T00:04:00.005+08:00

I think I know what's missing in my life lately.
The novelty factor.

Same old thing everyday, and it gets more ridiculous each day.
My job is frustrating me, and since my job had been the centre of my life for the past year, I'm pretty much feeling really down now.

Everyone knows how much I wanted this job, how much I loved it.
But loving something doesn't mean that you should stay with it, right?
Try as I might, I just can't do anything right anymore.
It's not like I didn't try or tried any less, but the results just didn't do justice to my efforts.

Maybe it's time to move on, the time to find something that suits me better.
But what is the guarantee that I will do better in a new job?
Maybe it's not the job that's getting ridiculous, but I'm the one who is underachieving.

I'm in the middle of fixing things now.
I hope it will work out just fine.
Maybe not like I planned or expected, but as long as it's going smooth and fine, then I'll settle.

Music is giving me a lot of comfort now.
Listening to old and new favourites of Korean pop helps me to check out of my real life, where I'd work till I drop, or worry and obsess about the things that could go wrong throughout the day.

Most of my friends can't understand what Korean pop means to me & they make fun of me.
I'm starting to take it personally, after a while. But I find comfort knowing what goes around comes around.

The question here is, what's the difference between obsessing about Korean Pop and obsessing about shoes, sports, or jerks in real life who break our hearts?

Live and let live, I'd say.
Peace & out.

K-Note #5: Been quite some time since the last K-Note, but the new solo single released by the Korean hottie singer/dancer Taeyang of Big Bang is the perfect excuse for me to go all nuts about Korean pop. Fans did not hesitate on jumping on the single, Where U At, released on October 14, 2009. It was an instant hit on the Internet, among local and international netizens likewise. An MV was released together with it, and it serves justice to the hot single by the equally hot Taeyang. Non-fandom readers, humor me and check the official MV out. If you don't feel that the song or Taeyang himself sparks your inner fire, there shall be no excuse for you to read my KNotes anymore.

Why did I fall in love with you?

2009-10-10T19:05:00.006+08:00

WHY DID I FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU (translated) - originally sang by TVXQ
(ORIGINAL TITLE: Doushite Kimi o Suki ni Natte Shimatta n Darou)

Why did I fall in love with you?
No matter how much time passes
I thought you would always be here

But you chose a different path

Why couldn't I convey to you
Every day, every night, the growing thoughts
The words begin to flow

But they won't reach you

Since the day that I met you
I felt like I knew you
We melted together so naturally

Wherever we would go, together
Needing you is a natural thing
The two of us became adults together

But you chose a different path

Why did I fall in love with you?
No matter how much time passes
I thought you would always be here

But you won't come back

Today will always have a special meaning
Today the happiness stands on our faces
You defy God with your beautiful figure

I'm not the one being blessed at your side
I'm supposed to say farewell?

And why did I fall in love with you?
We can't go back to how it was (consider it)
Can't go back (consider it)

Why didn't I take your hand?
No matter how much time passes
You should be at my side forever (but it didn't come true)

But you are still being taken from my side
And I still wish for your eternal happiness

No matter how lonely (no matter how painful)

I got you under my skin

2009-10-09T07:24:00.004+08:00

When a boy starts to get under my skin, I'm not sure on how to react.
It's been 2 years since I have been really in love, and I'm not sure whether this is budding love, or not.
He's been pleasant so far, impressing me compared to the men I have met since.
But is pleasant enough to win my heart?

Should I back off now or should I go with the flow?
Should I let him in or should I block him out?
Is he really interested or stringing me along?
*sigh*
I hate feeling this way. I wish I'm sure on this.
I'd like to be sure, but I'm just NOT SURE.

Being in love is a great feeling, but I'm seriously worried when I start to be interested.
Being in love takes a lot of work, time, and energy.
Am I honestly ready for that?

Seeing a lot of bad breakups around me these days is seriously putting me off the whole idea of being in love.
I hope I can figure this out.
I like him a lot, but I'm hesitating.

Peace & out.

A Hermit Weekend

2009-10-03T22:17:00.003+08:00

Funny how much things are happening in my social circle these weekend, but I choose to be in seclusion. I'm thinking a lot about The Hermit card from my tarot deck. Maybe that's what I need, time alone to think, like The Hermit.

I worked until late Saturday, and slept all afternoon
Woke up early Saturday evening, ate dinner, went down to the pool with my housemate and her sister, talked a little to my housemate's family who slept over, and now surfing the Internet.
A little later, I plan to watch the Big Show concert DVD for the 19th time, I think..haha..
The way I see it, it's the perfect weekend :)

I always worked until I dropped on weekdays, so weekends are almost always the time when I time-out from my real life.
I'd rather stay home and indulge in reading, or KPop fandom, then going out tiring myself out, when I'm already tired from the weekdays, to start with.

I would be too happy to spend the weekend at home sleeping, doing laundry, going over my Tarot decks and watching some TV, rather than catching up with my friends on the weekends. If I'm too bored, I'd probably eat out with my housemate, or simply going to the city on my own.

I'm not anti-social or socially awkward but I believe that I need time when I don't have to see another human being, like checking out from my life, and just retreating inwards.

Am I being weird?
Can anyone understand the way I see this?

No? Oh well, I thought so.
I can live being the weirdo.

Love for JaeBum, again & again!

2009-09-29T17:06:00.006+08:00

You know there is something I really have to write about.
Remember Jaebum (JB) of 2PM that I mentioned in one of my KNotes before?
Well he left 2PM and went back to his hometown, Seattle.

You'd think his Hottest fans would just sit still and let him fade away like that?
Well apparently not.
Since he left, the Hottest fans have been doing all sorts of things for him, you wouldn't believe it.
There was that silent protest they did for him in front of JYPE building in Manhattan ( I think ), where they stick Post-it notes all over the entrance.

If you need to check that out, here's one of the coverage story on the event: HERE
To be honest, I wish I was there to see all that myself.

Then there's the Hottest Flash Mob thing, where Hottest fans get together at a public place and dance to 2PM songs, then disperse as sudden as they gather. There should be one held in KLCC
Park this weekend, Oct 4th, at..well you guessed it, 2PM. However, Malaysian Hottests would be doing a freeze flash mob. Instead of dancing, you just stand there and freeze. I honestly think that is cool (pun not intended).

The Hottests even went as far as donating money to put a sky message through Seattle sky for 2 hours, 2PM onwards, on Sept. 28th. Most people would think it's plain weird and all, I personally felt it was heartwarming. The love that Hottests show for their JB is just heartwarming.
My eyes watered when I see all the twitter updates prior & throughout the event, and when I saw the actual pics of the sky banner, I sobbed real hard. I wasn't even a hardcore 2PM fan.
I just have a lot of respect of the love that the Hottests are showing for their JB.

Check the photos out HERE

I was just wondering, with all the efforts from Hottests, would JB return to 2PM? Is that what the Hottests demand from all these? I'm lost here, someone help?

But then, these KPop idols, they never fail to surprise us :)
I wouldn't know how different 2PM would be with or without JB, as I didn't listen to 2PM that much anyway, but to Hottests, I have a lot of respect for your efforts, and I will help spread the word for your next projects :)

RALAT:

1) The banner was sent to the sky is a display of undying support in whatever Jay plans to do next. Hottests did NOT send the banner to the sky to demand him to return to 2PM, not if he didn't wish to.
2) Malaysian Hottests Freeze Flash Mob location has been changed to outside BB Plaza Maybank, same time, same date.

Bitter Heart

2009-09-21T14:55:00.003+08:00

I know that a lot of people think that I'm cruel & heartless.
I'm not compassionate and I'm bitter.

I kinda agree?
Gahh I don't know.
I didn't grow up seeing a lot of compassion going around.
The days where I had to rock myself to sleep, while telling myself that everything was gonna be okay were etched in my mind.
No one came to rescue then. No one offered to help, listen, or understand. I'm okay with that.
But please don't expect me to be rescuing, offering to help, listening, or understanding when other people are going through BS.

I was constantly being pressured to grow up & be brave, to forget my pain & strive, and I was just a kid then.
I didn't feel the need to save other people now, just as I wasn't being saved before.
I'm really sorry, it's not that I don't want to be of help, but the best advice I can probably give was what I learned growing up. Suck it up & grow up, sekian terima kaseh.

If you can't understand that about me, then I guess that I don't need to understand you either.

The Real Life

2009-09-21T13:59:00.005+08:00

Seeing the way my sister raise her child, I had learned a lot of things I shouldn't be doing when I have my own kids. That is, IF, I'm ever gonna have kids anyway (you know how I'm not exactly hyped up with the idea of marriage and life-long commitment)
I think that my sister is going overboard with giving her son all he wants, up to the point that he didn't understand the meaning and consequences of NO.
Now that is very dangerous, I have seen a lot of my friends who grew up with that kind of upbringing & the trouble they had become.
I love children, but I do not bow to their whims just because they're children. I feel that children need to learn the consequences of their actions from as young as they can.
I strongly believe that children need to learn that nobody is going to constantly save them from getting into trouble & that it's not possible to be getting EVERYTHING that they wished for.
That's something children need to learn as they are growing up, not discovering the truth only when they're all grown up.
My mom said that I would probably not feel the same way when dealing with my own children. Well maybe it's best that I'm not put responsible of the raising of any child, mine or otherwise.

KNote# 4: I have recently fallen in love with 4Minute. I'm constantly looping their mini album all Raya. It puts me in a good mood. I give their mini album 4.5 stars. I personally like it better than 2NE1's mini album. Now if any song was going to pose a challenge against 2NE1's FIRE, it would be 4Minute's Muzik...or Hot Issue. F(x)'s La Chata? Is that somekind of a cruel joke by SM? Well yeah, you guys got me, it's pretty funny ;P

In my mind, I have shot you & stabbed you

2009-09-12T08:50:00.003+08:00

REVENGE - Sparklehorse

Pain

I guess it's a matter of sensation

But somehow

You have ways of avoiding it all

In my mind

I have shot you and stabbed you through your heart

I just didn't understand

The ricochet is the second part

Cause you can't hide

What you intend

It glows in the dark

Once you've sought

The path of revenge

There's no way to stop

And the more I try to hurt you

The more that it hurts me

Strange

It seems like a character mutation

Though I have all the means of bringing you fuckers down

I can't make myself

To destroy upon command

Somehow forgiveness lets the evil make a loss

No you can't hide