Last night was the last night I spent as a CCH employee. I was elated the whole day because for the past week, my closest friends in CCH, my team members, had given me the special treatment because it was my last week.
However, towards the end of the working hours last night, after goodbyes by goodbyes had been exchanged, the reality finally sunk in.
As I shut down my computer for the last time as a CCH employee, signed out in the attendance sheet, and drove out of the building for the last time, I couldn't help but shake. My hands were shaking, my heart was shivering.
For the past 4 years, I have been spending every night (and sometimes day), countless hours devoting myself to my job, pouring my soul into my work that has become my baby, the meaning of my life, without fail. I met countless amazing, inspiring people that had come and go. I joined WK fresh out of college, with sky-high ambition and hope, and I experienced so many happy, sad, and proud moments, growing as a person in CCH with my peers. Being away from family and old friends, the people I met in CCH have been my rock, my pillar all these years.
There will be no more of this. My job had been something I turn to when nothing else in my life was going right. I knew that if I put enough effort, I can actually achieve something there, and the idea soothes my heart. I don't know when my path will cross again with CCH, but I have a good feeling that this will not be the end. I was so proud contributing to the company, being a part of the big family that is CCH, and I will terribly miss it.
It's not like I am not excited for the new job, but it will be completely different from the comfort zone that I was used to. However, even if I don't completely feel comfortable now, I can always trick myself to be more excited for new adventures and new people to meet. Rather than mourn the end of my stint with CCH, I will try to be more excited for the much-anticipated change that is soon to come.
Thank you, CCH, for the wonderful (although occassionally painful) 4 years.
Perhaps this will not be the last time that you'll hear of me.
..and thank you oh thank you Sakinah, Zu, Farah, Ati, Izzah, Hamizah, and the rest of team Becrux who just couldn't stop giving and doing countless favours for me in my final week in CCH. Wow, where do I go to meet a group of people this special again? I love all of you and I will miss you terribly.
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