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Well the first month of the new year did not go as uneventful as I had hoped, but I am thankful for all the lessons I have learned from the challenges.
My first blog entry in 2012 should be at least this meaningful.

It's February 1.

FIRST BIGBANG COMEBACK IN 2012!

I decide to celebrate by posting a photo of this fabulously beautiful man.

(credits: BIGBANGUPDATES)

Like I said, fabulously beautiful.

The dreamer

I have always been a dreamer. I used to have so many dreams that I live for. However, these days I felt that all those dreams had died. I don't know anymore what I want for myself and my life. When I think about it, I believe it's because of the fear that I have within. I have settled in a specific lifestyle that it's fearful to uproot from this lifestyle and pursue my dreams.
Sometimes I wonder if it's even fear that is stopping me from pursuing my dreams -- maybe it's just pure laziness. It takes a lot of work to make changes to a lifestyle that you have been comfortable with for quite some time. But laziness can be cured, but fear takes more effort to overcome. I still need to do more thinking to figure this out, but once I do, I hope that I'm just a lazy person rather than a coward.

30-Day Challenge: Day 14

30 THINGS IN 30 DAYS CHALLENGE 

DAY 14: A TV SHOW THAT YOU'RE CURRENTLY ADDICTED TO

I am not a big fan of TV shows, I don't even watch TV that much. But if there is any show that I want to keep watching, season after season, it is Ghost Adventures. The GA crew makes paranormal researching look enjoyable and fascinating. After seasons of watching this show, I have developed a tiny crush on the main host of the show, Zak Bagans. He has a good body, not so much of a cute face, but supremely charming. Plus all the provocation (towards the paranormal activity) that he does in the show, makes him look so hot.

He is not absolutely brave, sometimes he gets spooked too, by the paranormal encounters (and snakes and some types of insects) he had, but he keeps going, and I have a lot of respect for that.

The most exciting thing about this show is that they go through lockdowns, from dusk till dawn, in haunted locations across USA, and work to document the paranormal activities that happen in those places. They take you through the lockdown, in real time, and they use all kinds of scientific equipments to document their findings. Really cool equipments, I am telling you.

If you're a fan of paranormal investigation, I recommend this show for you.

Zak, Nick, and Aaron have the best sense of humour in the industry and I thoroughly enjoy it.

30-Day Challenge: Day 13

30 THINGS IN 30 DAYS CHALLENGE 

DAY 13: A PICTURE OF YOUR FAVOURITE BAND/ARTIST

♥ BIGBANG ♥

Korean male idol group

30-Day Challenge: Day 12

30 THINGS IN 30 DAYS CHALLENGE 

DAY 12: YOUR CURRENT RELATIONSHIP, IF SINGLE, DISCUSS HOW SINGLE LIFE IS

Whoa, this is a profound topic.

I am not in a relationship, and as per the opposite situation, 
it has its pros and cons.

Rather than rambling and steering out of topic, let's do this in a way that is interesting and easy to understand

PROS OF BEING SINGLE

• I don't have to report to or ask permission from anyone to do things that I wanted to do. Be it getting a radical haircut or taking interest in paranormal investigation, I am free to do anything I wish. I learn to rely on my own logic and sound mind, and listen to my heart.
• I am naturally in tune with guys more than with girls -- that is how my brain is wired. I have a lot of close guy friends and I like it like that. Being single, I never have to explain to anyone my close friendship with another dude.
• Love is a burdensome emotion, especially when the person you love don't take love as seriously as you do. I feel liberated without having the burden in my heart. Love for men, have caused me a lot of pain my whole life, and at this moment, I am enjoying the independence of being responsible of my own joy and pain.

CONS OF BEING SINGLE

• I have come to the age where most of my friends are getting married and having babies. It is burdensome for my family and I to keep having to explain when I am getting married, and why not soon. It helps if I am in a relationship, at least there is some explanation to start with.
• It is natural for human beings to crave for human contact. I know how it feels like to have a man's strong and warm hands filling my palms, the feeling of being protected by a man who loves me, and his warm smile calming my shivering heart. I miss that feeling.
• As much as I am scared shitless about having children of my own, a small part of my heart wants to experience this for myself. I can adopt, yes of course, but I want to have the normal family that I once had -- Mom, Dad, and the kids. How am I going to achieve that being single?

In conclusion, I am happy being single, and I enjoy it. However, I have no qualms about being in a relationship, as long as it will be fulfilling and worthy. I am a romantic, and although most people would think that this won't do me any good, but I have spent my entire life moulding my personality, and I am not going to settle for 2nd best. I'd say that I am stubborn to want to have what I want, but I have faith that God knows what is best for me. Maybe what I want is not what I need, and I will never find out being stubborn.

30-Day Challenge: Day 11

30 THINGS IN 30 DAYS CHALLENGE 

DAY 11: WHAT'S IN YOUR MAKEUP BAG?

I don't use a lot of makeup. Most of the time, I prance along bare-faced. However, I do own a makeup bag - a huge one. However most of the time, I only carry some favouritenecessary items around. Here's what I found in the tiny case of makeup that I carry around on daily basis.